Carol Lem as Music Student

Chikudo: The Bamboo Way


(To Masakazu Yoshizawa)

My teacher sits beside me,
holding his shakuhachi like an oar.
Blow as though you were
a fisherman rolling a boat.
He walks the rhythm, hums
the tune. I see myself alone,
small waves rocking my boat
like a cradle. I stop and wait.

He explains: each note, each phrase
has a shape. Like a leaf.
With thumb and finger he makes
the movement, narrow, then wider
at the top, he brings it to a close.
I want to see this in your sound:
two falling leaves and a root.

He reminds me: You have nowhere
To go, you are in the mountains.
I am on the bike, concentrating
on every rock and curve, braking
before I fall. I ask someone the way
to Sturtevant Falls. You're almost there.
When I see a cascade at the end
of the path I think I am there.
This is the way it is, just to say
I've arrived, somewhere.

I am learning to play chikudo:
The bamboo way, with my legs
tucked under my bottom and a pillow
to cushion my aging knees. I think
of those old men on stage at Koyasan Hall
entranced by their own sound,
no sheet music, eyes closed as in zazen,
oblivious to the occasional cough,
the swish of fans.

Music Essay: "Suizen: Blowing Meditation"
Copyright © 2004 Carol Lem
"Shadow of the Bamboo," CD featuring Carol Lem and Masakazu Yoshizawa

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